CHAPTER 4
I stared at him not believing what I just heard him say.He loves me but it was jusy this morning when he said he hated me.I was alittle freacked out.I couldnt say anything I just stared at him with my mouth opened and my eyes wide.
He was looking at me with hopful eyes waiting my replie.I didnt know what to say he looked so innocent and sad.I sat there for a moment longer thinking of the feels I had for him.I do love him I just never thought that I would be telling him that."Ponyboy you know that I have feels for you even from the begining."I said looking at him strait in the eyes.He smiled at me and gave me a big hug and kissed my cheek.
I felt weird but nice it was true i do have feels for him and I do believe that I was falling in love with him.I wasnt sure if this is what he ment maybe he ment that he loved me like family.I was to nervous to ask.He leaned over and kissed my cheek before leaving the room.I sat there wondering what in the hell came over him.
The next few days were weird between the up coming rumble and Ponyboy I went to bed every night very confussed.I thought about telling Darry but decied aginst it.If Darry knew about the looks Ponyboy was giving me he would be concered,so I keep it to myself.
The gang was realy excited about the rumble and was getting more excited everyday.No one seemed to blame me although I did blame myself behind closed doors.I couldnt tell you how many times I would be upset and then get on my computer and my friend be on there we would talk and before I knew it I would be laughing at the stuff she said.I would tell her everything and she would make me see the right choise to make no matter what.I was realy glade I met her.
The rumble was a day away and I was the only one getting nervous the gang thought that was funny and did their best to make me feel better but it didnt work.It seemed like everytime I turned around Ponyboy would be standing there looking at me and to tell you the truth it was realy sort of uncomfterable.
On Friday I was alone the gang was out playing football at the place were they would be haveing the rumble,when the phone rang,It was my father he told me if the greasers won it would mean my life,if the socs won it would mean the greasers lifes and hung up.I sat there and cried not knowing what to do.
When the gang came home that night I didnt tell them about the phone call,hoping that maybe it was a prank so I tried to forget it.The only one that knew somthing was wrong was Ponyboy and I couldnt tell him either.I was alone with this and I was scared shittless.
Today was the day of the rumble everyone was excited but me but I didnt show it to them.The rumble was set for six o clock and it was now five I couldnt keep my eyes off the clock to save my life.At five fifty the gang looked at me and left.I stood at the door and whatched them disapeared down the street.I was realy scared for them and myself.
I stared at him not believing what I just heard him say.He loves me but it was jusy this morning when he said he hated me.I was alittle freacked out.I couldnt say anything I just stared at him with my mouth opened and my eyes wide.
He was looking at me with hopful eyes waiting my replie.I didnt know what to say he looked so innocent and sad.I sat there for a moment longer thinking of the feels I had for him.I do love him I just never thought that I would be telling him that."Ponyboy you know that I have feels for you even from the begining."I said looking at him strait in the eyes.He smiled at me and gave me a big hug and kissed my cheek.
I felt weird but nice it was true i do have feels for him and I do believe that I was falling in love with him.I wasnt sure if this is what he ment maybe he ment that he loved me like family.I was to nervous to ask.He leaned over and kissed my cheek before leaving the room.I sat there wondering what in the hell came over him.
The next few days were weird between the up coming rumble and Ponyboy I went to bed every night very confussed.I thought about telling Darry but decied aginst it.If Darry knew about the looks Ponyboy was giving me he would be concered,so I keep it to myself.
The gang was realy excited about the rumble and was getting more excited everyday.No one seemed to blame me although I did blame myself behind closed doors.I couldnt tell you how many times I would be upset and then get on my computer and my friend be on there we would talk and before I knew it I would be laughing at the stuff she said.I would tell her everything and she would make me see the right choise to make no matter what.I was realy glade I met her.
The rumble was a day away and I was the only one getting nervous the gang thought that was funny and did their best to make me feel better but it didnt work.It seemed like everytime I turned around Ponyboy would be standing there looking at me and to tell you the truth it was realy sort of uncomfterable.
On Friday I was alone the gang was out playing football at the place were they would be haveing the rumble,when the phone rang,It was my father he told me if the greasers won it would mean my life,if the socs won it would mean the greasers lifes and hung up.I sat there and cried not knowing what to do.
When the gang came home that night I didnt tell them about the phone call,hoping that maybe it was a prank so I tried to forget it.The only one that knew somthing was wrong was Ponyboy and I couldnt tell him either.I was alone with this and I was scared shittless.
Today was the day of the rumble everyone was excited but me but I didnt show it to them.The rumble was set for six o clock and it was now five I couldnt keep my eyes off the clock to save my life.At five fifty the gang looked at me and left.I stood at the door and whatched them disapeared down the street.I was realy scared for them and myself.
You were actually close to Soda. Danny played with Grace and Logan all the time. You couldn’t even begin to imagine how they felt.
You hear the front door open. Darry was home now. You take another deep breath, and sit at the kitchen table.
Just breathe.
He walks into the kitchen. “Hey babe, what’s wrong?” He asks, setting down his wallet and keys.
You swallow. “I got a call.” Is all you manage to say.
“About?” He asks, eyebrows raised.
“Soda’s dead.” You blurt out.
The look on Darry’s face would haunt your memory for the rest of your life.
He just sat down on the floor in pure shock, mouth open, eyes wide.